DOOH! Ok, a controversial subject..
I have my doubts, about the drug
thing.. And you're right, I don't
know much about the drug culture..

In fact I confess.. I'm scared of the
entire idea! My folks have
drummed into me life's old
secret, that life is harsh and
unforgiving. I have no youthful
illusions of immunity or
invulnerability.

Constructing a life is such a fine,
detailed work. I would hate to
look back, years from now,
and wonder how I could so
carelessly construct a daily life
I could barely endure.

If drugs don't help you prepare for
or reach your goals, aren't they
just so many false images leading
nowhere? Like the flashy deal-maker
who looks good, in the moment,
and leaves every one broken and
saddled with debt, they can't,
in the long run, bring comfort,
security or happiness. . can they?

Then too, my sister always
tells me that I have an addictive
personality.. When I like something
I REALLY like it! ..I buy six identical
dresses, eat the same food for a
month, play the same concerto
two hundred times. I mean, if there
were a drug that felt as good as an
orgasm and lasted for hours..
I would be lost forever to those
false seductions!

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