I thought you had disappeared, straining for that last
bit of speed into the IRC world and dropping away like
Icarus into that digital sea. Marvelous error! I hear your
voice again, yes you have found me. How are you?

I've been thinking of you a lot. Sometimes, I pause in my studies or practice - those seemingly slow motion choreographies that will lead to MY future - and I wonder what you are doing - right then - and what YOUR future will be. Our choices are so very different.

I suppose we all ride the contrary seas between the passions of freedom and the seductions of security but I felt, or thought I saw, in your last letters, the timeless human ability to long for things detrimental to our souls.

Many of us can look around our youth to a company of friends who showed great promise and gifts and were in one way or another slain by the adult world. I would not want to see you joining that sad company. So I am glad to hear from you, to hear you sounding so well, so normal.

~~

I am here and well, still trying to define what is essential and vital in my life and build a world of my own in that image. I am glad I don't have to be on top, in the drivers seat, in control, to feel I am a paid up member, a participant, in the world. That control still eludes me. I search for it frantically, like the feverish beating of wings, or the cartoon dog chained in the yard but my limitations are what they are, for now.

Write back when you can..

Your friend, Leigh

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